8 november..

5 tahun sudah kau pergi meninggalkanku ,

Namun mengapa hinga saat ini kau masih menghantuiku masih membayang -bayangi hidupku ..

Tepat hari ini , 8 november 2013 , semerbak harum khas dari dirimu memenuhi ruang tidurku ..

Apa yang kau inginkan dariku ???

Merindumu , itu sungguh menyiksa batinku , menyentuhmu pun aku tak bisa...

Beristirahatlah dengan tenang di alam sana,

Bukan maksudku untuk melupakanmu, namun aku mohon dengan sangat biarkan aku melanjutkan hidupku , relakan aku berbahagia dengan yang lain..

Jauh di dalam lubuk hatiku, aku sangat menyayangimu, tapi ? sekarang berbeda..

Kita sudah berbeda dunia..

Aku ingin hidup tenang , aku ingin bahagia seperti yang lain,

Tolong , izinkan aku mencintai yang lain...

Aku mohon .....

it's just because

Just because somebody flirts with you, doesn’t mean they like you.

Just because somebody likes you, doesn’t mean they want to go out with you.

Just because somebody goes out with you, doesn’t mean they love you.

Just because somebody loves you, doesn’t mean they won’t to hurt you.

Because people lie and things change .

Boyfriends cheat, best friends leave and there will always be those peole that would kill to see you fall ~

The only expression ~

You can say sorry for a million times…

Say I love you as much as you want,

Say whatever you want , whenever you want.

But if you’re not going to prove that the things you say are true,

Then don’t say anything at all.

Because if you can’t show it, your words don’t mean a thing…

i'm so sorry i'm not your barbie doll !!!

for you ~

If someday I am gone forever from your life.. remember me as the only woman who loved your soul. Remember me in your good times as my love will bring a smile on your face..

Remember me in your bad times as my love will give you the world.

Don’t shed a single tear when you miss me as your tears will not let my soul rest in peace.

Remember my love for you is pure, divine and eternal..

LOVE NOTE~

Believe me when I say you changed me for the better~

From now on I look at love differently. I will no longer throw the word around and I will no longer fall for it so easily. I will be careful with my heart ,so it doesn’t break again, for if it does it may never come back. I thank you for making me realize. I have my own two feet I can stand on, and I don’t need a man to make me proud of myself. I know you thought I would not take this well and crawl back to you the second I got a change, but I’m stronger. And this is my new challenge and I will defeat it.

Thanks for helping me realize  I’m strong on my own…..

Being in love ~

Difficulty, As in you're gonna and up fighting more than half the time, then next like nothing ever happened at all. Spending one moment crying yourself to sleep, then the next non-stop laughter. Then full of frustation, next filled with joy. Some moments talking about what great future you two have planned ahead, then the next with no future at all, When you feel like you’ve completely given up, but you cant let go.

Half the time you're so damn sure of what it is the next you just absolutely have no clue anymore. Half of us will pretend like it’s the perfect little thing. But really, it’s the most unperfect thing there could ever be…

that is love guys ~

this one , i make it special for you ~

For you…

 

I had closed the door to my heart

And I wouldn’t let anyone in

I had trusted and loved only to be hurt,

But that would never happen again

I had locked the door and tossed the key

As far and mide as I could

Love would never enter there again…

My heart was closed foor good

Then you came into my life

And made me change my mind,

And just when I thought that tiny

Key was impossible to find…

That’s when you held out your hand

And proved to me I was strong

Inside your palm was the key to my heart

And you had it all long ~